Oh God…

What the hell am I doing here? And, Jesus Christ?!?, who in the heavens are these people? I’m so terribly confused most of time and there is no where else, no One else, but You to which I turn. Books about life and answers abound, but somehow through all these texts, You remain this great mystery that I love. Making You my One question without any answer.

Did you hear me last time? I said return, God damn it! I don’t want to be here anymore without you, and everyday I see a little less of your essence in that mess outside of kings, queens, presidents, and courts of legal text about how to live. Those answers aside, I miss you inside, Lord, and that’s the simplest version of this truth that I could ever write.

Quietly waiting, I walk the streets here dreaming of the magic we could create. Each day, moment after moment of visioning magical moments, you and I are together again in that reality. Lacking emotion, full of grace, I bow in front of you and hand you the crown even now.


I am,

I will be,


the pathway is broken
the signs are unclear
I don’t even know the reason
why You brought me here
just because You love me
the way that You do
I’m gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to
‘Cause I’m not who I was
When I took my first step
Instead I’m clinging to the promise
You’re not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will go through the fire
If You want me to
It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world
that’s not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I’m not alone
When the whole world turns against me
When I’m all by myself
I will hear You answer my cries for help
I’ll remember the suffering
Your love put You through
I will go through the valley
If You want me to




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