Test: 20180401:08:36 – Final Confessions

Here’s the confession of a lifetime, my own: I started writing publicly for a boy and a girl.

I did it for a wo/man who hurt me.

I did it for my sister,

and my brother,

my mother and my father.

I did it because I cared to leave a trail behind me of what I have been thinking for the last several years. I did it because I got cancer. I did it because I got into a car accident and got a concussion. I did it because I was hurt by that man who I started writing to. Then, I did it because I was hurting and dying slowly.

All that you see here, it’s for them, it’s for you, it’s for me, it’s for us. It’s a concussion’s worth of mercy and grace and anger and love and mean and nerdy and…well, this writing thing changed my life. It’s all yours. You can have it world, I give it to you all, my sisters and brothers, my family, my friends.

I paid money to write to you all these years, I hope you find me here (and when I am gone). I paid money to keep ads (other than WordPress’) off here. I am a business of One. This writing thing…I hope I find me in this blog someday when I’m in someone else’s skin. Writing?

It set me free.

It’s what I need to be.

I am a writer. I was meant to be: writer.for.life.

You want to pay me money to hear what I have to say?

You want to be near me to learn my ways?

Write? to me if you need?

Comment here

whatever:

Write

Write

Write

That’s how I did it. I wrote letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after 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after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after letter after <Repeat INFINITY>

I wrote poetry

I wrote

songs

letterS…..

lots of letters

then I publiclY

SPOKE, I SPOKE UP!

I TOLD YOU WHO I WAS.

I AM TELLING YOU WHO I AM.

IN THIS LETTER?!?!?!?!

I am GOD of this

wo?man:

I am Stephanie Marie Bird (SMB).

But, I am not a name! stop

calling me that?!?!

iam@Birdanity

I am Selah

I am

?

but

who

are You?

 

p.s. but, who

are

we?

if I told you my story

you would hear hope that wouldn’t let go

if I told you my story, you would hear love that never gave up

if I told you my story, you would hear life, but it wasn’t mine

if I should speak then let it be of One Earth

and the grace that is greater

than all my sin

of when justice

was served

and where

mercy

wins

all this kindness?

that draws me in is to tell of YOU

if I told you my story, you would hear victory

over the enemy. if I told you my story, you would hear freedom

that was won for me. if I told you my story, you would hear how life overcome

the grave. if I should speak, then let it be of the grace that is greater

than all this sin. of when justice was served and mercy won.

all the kindness inside of me (of we)

this is our story

One song

praising

our

savior?

All the day long!

AllMen?

One

Nation under God?

One Nation?

One earth?

One?

just

one?

nation under God?

Please, we are all under

and over God. We are all tired

of that message about who God was

when she lived here in this body.

this One they named Stephanie

Steph, you know

your friend

Steph?!?

she

is

still here:

Two.

she is

also a creative

writer. she writes. writes

writes. writes. writes. once in a blue moon

like every day. like every damn day. like every moon

write.write.write.write.write.write.write

wax on, wax off

wax on, off

ha!

there’s One o’

your confessions again

 

 

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