Test: 20180407:10:36 – WeTRI@Birdanity

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@Birdanity,

I am still mad…

If it were possible to love me just the way that I am, could you try? Could you Tri? Could you?

Though I may seem like I am above, below, or outside of your pay grade, or even that I am a walking Human with Resources ERRORs that are all just waiting to happen: Still…could you TRI to love me just the way that I am because I love you just the way that you are? Could you love me because I am your friend? Even because I have been writing to you for all these days, months and years?

#metoo?

Could you love me?

Could we be friends?

I’m just asking if you could see me as your friend, it’s not that hard to imagine this possibility, is it?

I told you my story in subtle ways. @Birdanity, birdanity.com – is the story in my head, and it was all right here for you to read in black/white and even some beautiful color. One fully documented Stephanie Bird, at your service because I love you too. This whole time I was writing? It was to you and it was for you, not for me. Or was it? I’m not sure, but I tried.

I tried. I tried. I tried. I tri-ed. I TRI-ed. I tried to learn to write “good”. Did it work?

Then I kept on trying until tried became tired. It was crazy wild, but this lazy old lion, well I got back up and tried today. Write here and now I’m getting back up and trying again. *ROAR* Today, just today, I will try again. Right here and now, I am telling you that your story about you doesn’t end either. It’s a journaler’s worth of nothing, and who is this whole story for?

YOU. (said w/ emphasis)

You? Well, still without you, there’s this whole other story that I want to tell and it’s One about abstinence from lovers who lie. It’s a story about keeping toxins away from my life like Dave Booda @boodaism who are self-proclaimed assholes to the world. Boys who write whole religions about sexual experimentation after saying things like, “I love you, and I want to know you for a lifetime”. They are boys who share these expressions, then sleep with little girls like I was, then never call them again. No more assholes.

To: Toxic boys who disown me, excommunicate me, and traumatize the world with their asshole stories – shame on you. That’s my SMB news to the world today and what I have to “say” again on this Saturday morning – NO MORE LIES or BOYS like Dave Booda who expect offerings of this body for multiple sexual experiments and play parties and games where I am the fun.

Sure, I’m still mad at that little boy, but enough is enough with writing to shame him for writing publicly about being an asshole who made me and other little girls into sexual experiments. Shame on…YOU, Dave Booda. (said w/ emphasis)

#metoo

#METOO

#SHAMEONMETOO

but I tried.

to tell you.

I AM good…

Did you listen?

YOU did not listen!

Now?!? there is @Birdanity

#metoo

 

~Stephanie Bird

p.s. If it were possible to love me just the way that I am, could you try? Could you Tri? Could you?

Though I may seem like I am above, below, or outside of your pay grade, or even that I am a walking Human with Resources ERRORs that are all just waiting to happen: Still…could you TRI to love me just the way that I am because I love you just the way that you are? Could you love me because I am your friend? Even because I have been writing to you for all these days, months and years?

#metoo?

Could you love me?

Could we be friends?

I am sorry that I hurt you too.

I’m just asking if you could see me as your friend, it’s not that hard to imagine this possibility, is it?

 

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