i fear being
the teacher i was
from the beginning
and in my dreams, you
were there. forgiving me,
then loving me for a lifetime.
but i am not worth a lifetime of love.
i am worth a lifetime of suffering for love.
lovingly picking mySelf up again and again.
failure after beautiful failure. day after day, i
fail to meet my own expectations of what a life’s
worth of time is worth to me. and thru all these failures
i find a lot