If you could instantly master any skill, what would it be and why?
Mindfulness may seem like a simple practice. It is, and it’s also not. Both seem true.
While it may be possible to “always” be mindful.. I haven’t met an “always” human experience like that yet. Perhaps in this, there is also no true Master. There is.. Human and shared experience.
A recent traumatic event has my mind rolling with thoughts and memories. A lot of tears rise up in my chest, another space I hold grief. Try as I might to stop, there there it is again – the salty water running down each cheek.
When I’m unaware, I control or even forget to breathe. Good thing mother nature steps forward with her requirements. Deep breaths.
These breaths of feeling come through, sometimes so unexpectedly. I sit in meditation and start to vibrate and shake again. Breathing, inhale, exhale..
Today, I imagined the words and memories imprinted on a running belt at a gym. Writing the memory in large print, seeing the repeat cyclical pattern.. Helps. So does walking outside, touching each tree branch and leaf softly.
My mind is quite an animal. A wildcat. Taming the lion within is quite a practice.. A test of my self-patience..
Maybe my Mom is right.. that I did this to myself and need to make better life choices. Maybe that’s true. Maybe it’s also false and there is no such thing as “better”.
True and false.. Both can be valid options and at any moment we give to either version or voice.
Birdanity 
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